Having the longest holidays of my life... 3 months of complete slacking, hanging around with friends and doing whatever I feel like doing... Haha... University life seems really cool, the guys more mature and humorous, the girls more fun-loving and open. The activities also require more independence, communication and "out-of-the box" thinking unlike my pre-uni school life.
I can't wait to choose my laptop at the matric fair, though I've nearly spent about 40% of the money my parents gave me for it already... Dunno how to ask them for more money... Sigh... Can't seem to stop myself from spending money for the least of reasons. Think it is time to reject offers of outings and chalets already... =P
Right now all I can think of is the planning to the Agape Youth's teaching calendar. Major headache that one. I've roughly done the scheduling, but I've got to pray really hard about what God really wants the youths to know. Sometimes I think we really need a revival. I know I do... I'm seriously dry and I'm too lazy to get the water I need... God please give me initiative and strengthened this heart of mine to do the things you want me to. You don't deserve a worker as lousy as I am, but I really want to contribute to the extention of your kingdom.
I need a revival. Please God, rain down on me.
Thursday, July 20, 2006
Friday, July 07, 2006
Arts Camp 2006
I know it's a little late to post this, but right now is when I've the most amount of time and strength since the camp ended a week ago. Arts Camp 2006 was fun! I totally so not regret going for it... There was cheering, and games, and meeting new people who are just as cool as I am! (Okay, I know some of you like to think of yourself as cooler) No more PRC scholars who can't speak proper English, muggers who can't talk anything but studies, and especially all that Maths and Science jargon that for some weird reason I just don't seem to understand. It's time to enter a new era and major in something where the battleground is flat and everyone starts from the same level and altitude: the Beginning.
Anyway, Arts Camp was really great! I always thought that the 1986-1987 babies were a bunch of pampered pricks like my brother (Hahaha), but they're really cool people. The girls in my OG are fun-loving, always smiling and have no problems revealing their intimate side once in a while. The guys are garang (as usual), easy to interact with, and have the greatest capacity for humor. Our OGLs are fantastic people with different personalities and opinions that make for an extremely exciting group overall! Thanks guys for making this camp so memorable. I've never had so much fun and bonding in my life since my 1st 3 months in SAJC and my OCS days. I hope this is the beginning of an enriching and unforgettable friendship that will last! =)
During the camp, some poeple have asked why I've chosen to go Arts & Social Science instead of Science or Engineering since I was doing Science in JC. Some of the reasons have been listed above. But the main reason is this: I'm going to do something that I truly love and have passion for. It's worthless doing something that I may be good in (Science and Maths); There will be alot more fun and drive to study something that I have passion for (Psychology and Sociology). For those of you who have known me since my teenager days, I've always been fascinated with human relations, interactions and thought.
Yes, I know I'm not good with essays, but I'll learn. I've got 3-4 years to hone up those skills of mine.
Okay, still got Sociology Camp and Crusade Camp to go for. My NUS life is really starting out to be alot more fun and exciting than I've ever imagined!
Anyway, Arts Camp was really great! I always thought that the 1986-1987 babies were a bunch of pampered pricks like my brother (Hahaha), but they're really cool people. The girls in my OG are fun-loving, always smiling and have no problems revealing their intimate side once in a while. The guys are garang (as usual), easy to interact with, and have the greatest capacity for humor. Our OGLs are fantastic people with different personalities and opinions that make for an extremely exciting group overall! Thanks guys for making this camp so memorable. I've never had so much fun and bonding in my life since my 1st 3 months in SAJC and my OCS days. I hope this is the beginning of an enriching and unforgettable friendship that will last! =)
During the camp, some poeple have asked why I've chosen to go Arts & Social Science instead of Science or Engineering since I was doing Science in JC. Some of the reasons have been listed above. But the main reason is this: I'm going to do something that I truly love and have passion for. It's worthless doing something that I may be good in (Science and Maths); There will be alot more fun and drive to study something that I have passion for (Psychology and Sociology). For those of you who have known me since my teenager days, I've always been fascinated with human relations, interactions and thought.
Yes, I know I'm not good with essays, but I'll learn. I've got 3-4 years to hone up those skills of mine.
Okay, still got Sociology Camp and Crusade Camp to go for. My NUS life is really starting out to be alot more fun and exciting than I've ever imagined!
Monday, May 29, 2006
Unforgettable Memories
I've been reading a good number of blogs recently and the gist I've managed to pulled out is this. So many people have sad or terrible memories of their past. How come it seems as if everyone has had unhappy childhood one way or another? It doesn't matter if they were good looking or ugly, tall or short, smart or not-so-smart.
Good-looking people, why do you fret so much? When was beauty ever a curse? I have good-looking people coming up to me and telling me that they are getting back-stabbed all their lives, the opposite sex is attracting them for the wrong reasons, and that they have trouble making close friends without inevitably breaking up for the silliest things! They forget that their beauty is so envied, that they stand out from the crowd with just a smile, and opportunities come their way so often!
Ugly people, or people who think they are ugly anyway, I know how you feel. I've been there, done that. You think that the world cannot see you for who you are, that people will never be able to see past your physical appearance. It may be true in some circumstances, but never forget that because God made you this way, you are stronger in life, more experienced of the effects of discrimination, and you also make the best relationships because you truly treasure them, knowing that such friendships may never come by again.
Smart people, you feel discriminated by those who don't do as well as you. Why? Have you ever thought of opening up to give them a hand with work or studies, or telling them how you feel? Why do you even distant yourself from people? If you actually think yourself as a smart person and are looking for advice in this paragraph, then I think you've just found the answer to why you have bad memories. Because you think yourself different when God never meant it to be that way.
Not-so-smart people, I think you're the most blessed of all. There's nothing to envy of others. The day you actually feel discriminated, you've grown smarter already.
God gives us memories to treasure, to learn from, and to share with others. I hope you will now look back at your memories in a different light. God bless!
Good-looking people, why do you fret so much? When was beauty ever a curse? I have good-looking people coming up to me and telling me that they are getting back-stabbed all their lives, the opposite sex is attracting them for the wrong reasons, and that they have trouble making close friends without inevitably breaking up for the silliest things! They forget that their beauty is so envied, that they stand out from the crowd with just a smile, and opportunities come their way so often!
Ugly people, or people who think they are ugly anyway, I know how you feel. I've been there, done that. You think that the world cannot see you for who you are, that people will never be able to see past your physical appearance. It may be true in some circumstances, but never forget that because God made you this way, you are stronger in life, more experienced of the effects of discrimination, and you also make the best relationships because you truly treasure them, knowing that such friendships may never come by again.
Smart people, you feel discriminated by those who don't do as well as you. Why? Have you ever thought of opening up to give them a hand with work or studies, or telling them how you feel? Why do you even distant yourself from people? If you actually think yourself as a smart person and are looking for advice in this paragraph, then I think you've just found the answer to why you have bad memories. Because you think yourself different when God never meant it to be that way.
Not-so-smart people, I think you're the most blessed of all. There's nothing to envy of others. The day you actually feel discriminated, you've grown smarter already.
God gives us memories to treasure, to learn from, and to share with others. I hope you will now look back at your memories in a different light. God bless!
Friday, May 26, 2006
I Just Want To Be Me
I'm so bored I actually wrote out lyrics for a song of my own composition. I haven't actually gotten the tune or chords yet, maybe someone would like to help me out? Haha... The song's title is my blog's title also. Here it is:
Have you ever cried yourself to sleep at night?
Has your dreams been shattered into a million pieces before?
Has the one you loved so long rejected your heart
And for some, thrown it on the floor?
When all hope is gone
When you’ve got nothing to say
I did what people usually did
I began to pray
I know I shouldn’t be feeling this way
I know that what I’m doing is wrong
Oh God please help me, tell me I pray,
Remove this hurt so painful, so long
I don’t remember what true love is
I can’t feel my heart at all
Lord melt this iciness in my soul,
And let me love just once more
Sadness fills me like a rushing wave
Anger burns up every drop of sanity
Jealousy blinds my eyes like the night,
I’m chained by pain, oh the agony
Father set me free
Holy Spirit release me
Help me live out Your glory
Forever in eternity
Just by being me
I hope you readers reading this will enjoy it. It's not a true potrayal of what I'm actually going through, though I must admit it's somewhere close to that. Anyway, I'm famous for exaggeration. Haha...
It's good to be writing songs and stories again. Haven't done it for so long. Time to rekindle the passion. =)
Have you ever cried yourself to sleep at night?
Has your dreams been shattered into a million pieces before?
Has the one you loved so long rejected your heart
And for some, thrown it on the floor?
When all hope is gone
When you’ve got nothing to say
I did what people usually did
I began to pray
I know I shouldn’t be feeling this way
I know that what I’m doing is wrong
Oh God please help me, tell me I pray,
Remove this hurt so painful, so long
I don’t remember what true love is
I can’t feel my heart at all
Lord melt this iciness in my soul,
And let me love just once more
Sadness fills me like a rushing wave
Anger burns up every drop of sanity
Jealousy blinds my eyes like the night,
I’m chained by pain, oh the agony
Father set me free
Holy Spirit release me
Help me live out Your glory
Forever in eternity
Just by being me
I hope you readers reading this will enjoy it. It's not a true potrayal of what I'm actually going through, though I must admit it's somewhere close to that. Anyway, I'm famous for exaggeration. Haha...
It's good to be writing songs and stories again. Haven't done it for so long. Time to rekindle the passion. =)
The One You Love
Funny, seems like I've been having the urge to blog alot about Love recently.... But that's just the magic of Love. Love was what urged God to created this world from nothing, Love was what Jesus died for on the cross for our sins, and Love was what made the Christians of the past die for the glory of Heaven. Love is Walt Disney, Love is Richard Gere and Julia Roberts, Love is Chopin to Mendelssohn.
One of my favourite love songs is written by singer Glen Frey, and is entitled "The One You Love". It was just a tune that was beautiful, easy to remember with a really sexy saxophone motif that will play over again and again before, during and after the chorus. However, as life went on, I fell in love, and out of love many times. I was even faced with chasing after a lady whom I felt fitted me so wonderfully, or going back to the lady whom I know would be the ideal and perfect wife. The lyrics go like this:
Verse 1:
I know you need a friend, someone you can talk to
Who will understand what you're going through
When it comes to love, there's no easy answer
Only you can say what you're gonna do
Verse 2:
I heard you on the phone, you took his number,
Said you were alone but you'll call him soon
Isn't he the guy, the guy who left you cryin'?
Isn't he the one who made you blue?
When you remember those nights in his arms,
You know you gotta make up your mind
Chorus:
Are you gonna stay with the one who loves you
Or are you goin' back to the one you love?
Someone's gonna cry when they know they've lost you
Someone's gonna thank the stars above
Verse 3:
What you gonna say when he comes over?
There's no easy way to see this through
All the broken dreams, all the disappointments
Oh girl, what you gonna do?
Bridge:
Your heart keeps sayin',"It's just not fair"
But still you gotta make up your mind
Doesn't love just seem so unfair sometimes? Why can't we have everything? Why does it always seem like people around us are so happy, and ourselves just so unable to be like them?
If you had a choice, would you choose someone whom you love, or someone who loves you? Think about it. Who would you be happier with? Tell me your decision below. I think it'll make for an interesting debate. And please don't tell me that one day I'll meet someone whom I love who'll love me back just as much. No relationship in this world is perfectly balanced.
One of my favourite love songs is written by singer Glen Frey, and is entitled "The One You Love". It was just a tune that was beautiful, easy to remember with a really sexy saxophone motif that will play over again and again before, during and after the chorus. However, as life went on, I fell in love, and out of love many times. I was even faced with chasing after a lady whom I felt fitted me so wonderfully, or going back to the lady whom I know would be the ideal and perfect wife. The lyrics go like this:
Verse 1:
I know you need a friend, someone you can talk to
Who will understand what you're going through
When it comes to love, there's no easy answer
Only you can say what you're gonna do
Verse 2:
I heard you on the phone, you took his number,
Said you were alone but you'll call him soon
Isn't he the guy, the guy who left you cryin'?
Isn't he the one who made you blue?
When you remember those nights in his arms,
You know you gotta make up your mind
Chorus:
Are you gonna stay with the one who loves you
Or are you goin' back to the one you love?
Someone's gonna cry when they know they've lost you
Someone's gonna thank the stars above
Verse 3:
What you gonna say when he comes over?
There's no easy way to see this through
All the broken dreams, all the disappointments
Oh girl, what you gonna do?
Bridge:
Your heart keeps sayin',"It's just not fair"
But still you gotta make up your mind
Doesn't love just seem so unfair sometimes? Why can't we have everything? Why does it always seem like people around us are so happy, and ourselves just so unable to be like them?
If you had a choice, would you choose someone whom you love, or someone who loves you? Think about it. Who would you be happier with? Tell me your decision below. I think it'll make for an interesting debate. And please don't tell me that one day I'll meet someone whom I love who'll love me back just as much. No relationship in this world is perfectly balanced.
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
Beware the Fruit of Temptation
Have you ever had a struggle with something that you cannot see? Have you had a bad experience, vow never to do it again, only to see yourself doing again the very next day? My heart is filled with guilt everytime it happens. And I can never say sorry to God because I can't even be sure that I will not do it again.
I have more problems with Temptation den you can ever believe. And it has been hitting me 3 times harder since I took over the youth leadership. It's not one temptation, it varies, as if the Devil is trying different tactics to bring me down. At first I stood up against it, not willing to succumb to what I thought was all the Devil could possibly throw at me. And to think I actually thought myself so capable of fighting against him with my own strength.
The most painful temptation is when the Devil uses your love ones against you. Your friends, your family members, it really hurts. One simple mistake and your friendships come tumbling down, your relationships get strained and soon everyone turns against you. People lose their trust in you, and soon, you are left with nothing to live for.
I believe that I'm going through something like that. So please pray for me. Richard, I've just read your letter and I think we gotta have a heart-to-heart talk. I've been keeping more things than I have ever done from my best friend.
It's time to change. And change I must. Will blog again soon!
I have more problems with Temptation den you can ever believe. And it has been hitting me 3 times harder since I took over the youth leadership. It's not one temptation, it varies, as if the Devil is trying different tactics to bring me down. At first I stood up against it, not willing to succumb to what I thought was all the Devil could possibly throw at me. And to think I actually thought myself so capable of fighting against him with my own strength.
The most painful temptation is when the Devil uses your love ones against you. Your friends, your family members, it really hurts. One simple mistake and your friendships come tumbling down, your relationships get strained and soon everyone turns against you. People lose their trust in you, and soon, you are left with nothing to live for.
I believe that I'm going through something like that. So please pray for me. Richard, I've just read your letter and I think we gotta have a heart-to-heart talk. I've been keeping more things than I have ever done from my best friend.
It's time to change. And change I must. Will blog again soon!
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
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