Devastation

Utter devastation. I'm in total collapse. Why did you have to do that? Why were you so silly? Now your life will have be undergoing a totally different spin. Your plans, your future, your hopes, your dreams, now lie shattered in front of you. All it took was just one small, silly, seemingly harmless choice, a few minutes of ecstasy, a relieving of desire and a confirmation of love.

You were smart, sassy, beautiful, vocal, everything that a man could want. I know this because I know you better than anyone else. I would rather you make a mistake with anything else at all, but this. The moment you mentioned this to me, a sudden deep rift split open my inner core. An immense gravitational pull, akin to that of a black hole, just ripped apart my senses. We were so closed, and despite distancing ourselves for a short period of time, I still felt like I was part of you. And this just feels like, something is happening in me as much as it is already happening in you.

I'm disappointed. Sorely, utterly, downright disappointed. You might not think it's much of a deal, but... it will be in the future. I'll be praying for you. Honestly, I dunno what to pray for and how to go about it, but I'm sure He does.