Isn't it mind-boggling to see your friends having so much difficulty getting out of an abusive relationship and finding it impossible to remain faithful in an ideal relationship?
Isn't it perplexing to find some of the people with so much potential in the kingdom of God limited by their relationships with non-Christian partners, and yet they still seek other ways of drawing closer to Him without correcting this act of disobedience?
How do you know, wife, whether you will save your husband? Or, how do you know, husband, whether you will save your wife? (1 Cor 7:16)
As I read the prayer agenda, my heart sinks when I think of all my Christian friends around me with non-Christian partners. It feels no better when I think of all my Christian friends with partners who are just Christians by name, though one might say that I'm in no position to judge.
I really don't know how to pray for this item besides "Father, let Your will be done". If I pray any more specifically, I might come to think of myself jealous and sadistic, or ignorant and untruthful. Time will eventually tell them what kind of person they are in love with, I guess.
For now for me at least, as the days go by I'm getting more and more comfortable being single.
Comfortable. If only I could find a way to control the flood of testosterone every time I come back from the gym and my body goes into regeneration mode for that day and the next. My rate of recovery has always been nearly superhuman if I may say so; but a side-effect of muscle-building is the production of huge quantities of testosterone. Sometimes it feels like I just gorged down two dozen oysters or something. It's only by God's grace that somehow I've managed to evade pornography and the temptation to flirt around. But busying myself with activities and running my socks off can only last so long.
It's times like these that I marvel at His grace and His ability to reveal His power when I'm hopelessly weak. Prayer helps... no, prayer is absolutely necessary.
Insanity drives people to do crazy things. Without control, it leads to self-destruction. With control, it leads to a lust for perfection. Internal and external control. Occasionally from time to time, I'd think that I'm mad. All other times, I know that I'm mad. I just know it. -Valentino Casanova
That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. -Paul (2 Cor 12:10)
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